Do I really need a purpose in life?????

So I got think today. Do I really need a purpose in life???

I mean what that really mean. Do I need this for my daily existance?? Will I be less of a human without a purpose??

I can still go through every day without one. So far I managed 37 years of my life without beeing passionate about anything. Without any clear purpose in life. And I think I am pretty happy. I guess.

What does i really mean – purpose. I do not serve any greater higher power. So as long as I’m happy with myself I’m ok right?

I don’t need anyones approval that I am happy.

I am happy….. I think……

I go through my life day by day…… I wake up, I asses my previous day and I try for this day to be better than yesterday. Not for anybody else, not for society. I do it for me and for me only.

I know it sounds selfish but who gives a rat’s ass. I do live my own life and I do everything to make myself happy. Isn’t that the main goal of our lives. To be and to be happy – whatever makes us happy??

But if I had to have a purpose ?? What would it be…………….

Yamaha YBR125 2016 – Owners Review

Since I’m still not sure what Mr. Brain Echo should be all about I though I’ll do a small review on one of the bikes I owned previously.

Let me introduce 2016 Yamaha YBR125 🙂

I bought this bike as my second bike right after passing my bike license (Story of first bike will follow soon…) in August 2016.
Brand bew from the dealer at this time costed me €2100 euro including all registration fees.
It was an amazing feeling getting a brand new bike for this price. Any way. Let’s start with the Review:

General Description and Specs:

  • Singe cilinder 124cc, fuel injected four stroke engine producing approx 10Hp.
  • Bike had no ABS with single disc break at the front and drum break at the back
  • For suspension two telescopic forks in the front and swing arm at the back
  • 13L tank with Fuel level indicator on the dash
  • Simple Dash with classic Analog Speed Indicator and Rev Counter. No Gear indicator or any additional functiones.

User Review:

This is was an amazing “first” bike to own. I need to admit that thanks to owning it now I prefer motorcycles ower any form of transportation.

Ride quality and ride feel is decent. Clutch is super light, engine rev’s easy and general feel to the bike is “easy to use”. Another thing is that this was increadibly forgiwing bike. With such a small engine and simple features there wasn’t much I could have done to put myself in danger “unless it was reckless from my side”. It is impossible almost to loose control by over revving or wrong downshit. On the other hand this did helped me develop better rider skills. Controlling the throtlle, correct breaking habbits, manouvering in tight spaces. All came easy with it as you CANNOT over do it. and even when you crash – as I did – see video below 🙂 it haoends mostly on low speads and it carries much less consequences.

Suspenssion proved ok. Nothing out of this world but good enough to keep tires attached to the road most times. Adjustable preload at the back was helpfull since I was a bit heavier at that time. Setting it on harder setting helped soak the potholls in Maltese roads a bit better.

Maintenance costs over the year of ownership were minimal. It costed me nothing to be honest. First and second service were covered with the warranty and purchase cost so no worries there. First oil change came after 1000km with second bigger service done at 7000km witch checks on the breakes, chain, suspension and general view.

Using it in the city was a blast as well. Bike is very nimble and easy to manouver almost like driving a scooter. As long as you pay attention to your surrounding and remember you have no ABS you’re fine. Lack of ABS was my main issue with the bike. Especially as new rider without much experiance emergency breaking is always challange. It takes time and practice to develop proper breaking habits. On the bright side after a year of driving without ABS and paying attention how I break now I feel much safer on the road even with current ABS equipped bike.

Fuel consumption from what I remember was minimal as well. I used to put €10 every 2 weeks which was giving me If i rememebr well about 300 – 320 km on a full tank which is decent result.

To summary – bike is a great starter and much better than a scooter. I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone who want’s to go on a long trips or even highway trips for that matter. But in the city Enviroment – it does the job.

Hope you enjoyed this short review. …..

Getting a new Motorcycle

I think it’s time. Time to say by to my current bike and change it for something newer.

My beloved Suzuki GS550 – 2004 will look now for a new owner. We had a lot of amazing adventures over the past 2 years but it’s time to say bye 😦

It started to require a bit of extra work, supsension needs a rebuid, carborator could use a tune and some extra work here and there will be needed.

The issue is that without a garage it doesn’t really make sense for me to do it. I cannot do it myself and Suzuki Garage here in Malta is just a dissaster. I was trying ot make an appointemnt to take care of those things twice but so far – appointment is made – and than nothing happends, no parts, no technician. just crappy service.

So I think it’s better if she finds a new home…… and I’m thinking of ……

Choice went to VOGE 300DS or 300AC – 2021 models – They’re cheap and I like how they look.

I’m going to test drive it on Wednesday and maybe do a part exchange on the suzuki with a dealer.

The thing is that if all goes well with goverment grants I can have this one for less than 2000 euro which is a bargain.

I know it is a new brand, Chinease motorcycle and so on. However Loncin brand has good history and experiance making quality engines. In the end they produced BMW Motorcycle engines for few decades.

It might lack power with only 28Hp but do I reallly need more here in Malta. I don’t really think so.

All other bits and pieces looks relativelly impresive to. WIth NISIN Breakes, BOSH Electronics KBY susspension, LED Lights, LCD screen, USB Port and few more. Could it really be a Bargain I’m looking for?

I’m really tempted to switch to on of those bikes. Leaning more over 300DS than AC but will see after test drive.
I’m just hoping the 28Hp will not feeel underpowered. Especially in the long trip. I know this won’t fly in the highway but as long as It’s relativelly comfortable I should be fine. Could be a good start.

Let’s see what happends and I will keep you all posted.

Hospitality has changed…. and kids restaurants are the worst right now.

Ohhhh boy. Where do I even begin. I have so much anger and dissapointment inside of me at the moement that I’m affraid I will simply explode one day. Right in front of all the restaurant guests. I don’t remember when I was so stress at work.

People used to be nice you know.

When they were coming to eat to the restaurant – it was like – “I am a guest in somebodys place. So I will behave like I’m a guest. I will respect the rules of the establishment and beheave my best.” And Now……. “I’ making you a favour that I choose your restaurant over hundreds of others. So you better be extra nice, take the abuse and ideally gie me staff for free… If not I’m gonna make up a fake story or unload my frustration on some review website where other people will see me like a hero.

That’s pretty mch summarizes all the current guests attitude. You cannot talk to people any more. It’s near impossible. Almost everyone seems to be so self centred and “entitled” that normal treatmant of service staff does not exist anymore. Everyone wants everything now and in the way they want it. Doesn’t matter what’s on offer. Change it. Modify. Do everything to please me and keep me happy or I’m gonna unload ALL my frustrations on you. In the end you are in a service. so you’re here to serve – (BTW – that’s what I was recently told by one nasty 16th year old”) – just amazing

Yes. I do work in the restaurant. And lately it seems in the worst kind of a restaurant. CHILD ORIENTED restaurant.
Whoever works in the kids restaurants knows what I’m talking about. But it has been a nightmare. People just come over, bring their kids and expect that we will take care of them while they drink their Pinot Grigios and epensive cocktails. The thing is that we do not even have a play ground. so kids cannot safely play anywhere or be supervised by a at least semiproffesional for that matter.
So what happens? Kids end up runnig and screaming all over the restaurant for most of the days with parents not giving even half a f**k. Which is ridiculous. We are not a olay ground!!. We are a restaurant which just happends to be themed for children. We still carry trays full of hot food and hot beverages. I’m geniuinly surprised that no kid got hurt yet. I know this is only thanks to my staff who is extra vigilant.

And parents……. Where do I start on those……. Honestly I do not know why most of them even have kids. If they look after them at home in the same way as they do after them in the restaurant we are into horrible future. We will end up with spoiled brats who just scream for attention as all the parrents are to busy begging for attention themselves, constantly posting on Facebook, Instagram or even making “cute, short Tik Tok Videos” how great parents they are for taking their kids to this amazing restaurant.
Honestly it makes me vomit how fake and pretencius this is,

I’ll better stop as this short post will turn into a long rant about how sociaety is going down the drain.

P.S – Big kudos to the girls from Starbucks who posted her rant about all of this on Tik Tok 🙂 – keep strong girl.

Brain Explodes – Let’s Continue

I had been away from here for soooooo long that I’ve nearly forgotten about existance of my own blog.
It was supposed to be easy way to release overspill of my thoughts.
Lately I’ve been so busy that I was coming up with constant excuses not to write. I wanted to during the day and than after work….. puff. All energy gone….. couldn’t get myself to write.

Don’t get me wrong – I am not a writer. My profesion is so far from writiting anything (as you can probably see through my grammar :)) Writing is not essential to my day to day existance. Maybe that’s why it is so difficult to write.. 🤔 Who knows.

I think that in the end writing does help me release mental preasure so I will try to continiue.

So what had been bothering me lately???? …… In short – A LOT….. especially carrear wise.

I just managed to open succesfully huge restaurant project. We’ve been operating for over 6 weeks now. reviews are coming in – they not perfect but overall experiance is very positive. Considering the situation I managed to gather very good team of service staff. They all hard working and eager to learn. All procedures in the restaurant are falling slowly in to place, and yet……….. I’m extramely unhappy with the result…… or with the job itself. Hard to say.

It could be as well that I’mm tired of people. Oh and I’m so tired of people. All the guests coming in seem so spoiled. Thinking that they its their god given right to treat service staff like servants and the place like they own it.
Every second complaint it’s so baseless that this would have been unthinkable 20 years ago. On top of that all the threats of – “I will post bed review on all platforms” it’s been ridicolous. And owners all they care about is Facebook image, google reviews, tripadvisor……. that gives people to much power.
And to add to this I hate when Bosses interfere with bookings and seatings. Just learn to say bloody NO to the owners. grow some balls – if I’m telling you I don’t have tables it means – I do not have physical tables. I cannot just magically make another room with 20 more tables. I don’t care that those are the owner friends. No tables means – NO TABLES…. simple is that – telling me “make your mirracles you always manage” is not encuraging – rather opposite – it is very disrespectfull and to me it seems that you don’t believe and don’t trust me in running the business. It shows that “I know better even that I haven’t even been here for one shift during service.

All this brings me again to one HUGE Question – what should I do. – work wise I mean.
On this tiny dot of an Island there is so few opportunities that changing a carrear might be difficult. and anything I’m passionate bout it simply cannot work here or I don’t have enough money to start on it.

Will see. I’ve order digital note pad hoping that it will help me organize my life – I know – wishfull thinking – notepad will not organize my life- I need to do it myself. Maybe if I write it on the bottom of each of my daily note I will not forget…………


I’m so lost I don’t care for any of this

It’s been horrible 3 weekss. I did spend most of my days at work. About 14hours a day. When I honestly don’t even care for this job.

This is really crazy that we have to do this. Having not much savings I cannot really afford to requalify myself so I’m stuck in this job which I don’t enjoy anymore. Worst is that I’m out of ideas how to deal with this and getting more and more frustrated each day at work.

Work ethics in Malta are non existent and It feels like I’m gonna work either until I quit or until I drop sick from exhaustion. That’s not right. I really need to find a way how to deal with that.

From next week I’m reducing my work hours. I have to otherwise I’m not gonna manage my life anymore. I’m behind with private projects to the extreme. I haven’t been riding my bike at all. No YouTube creations. Nothing.

Maybe I should learn basic animation and story telling 🤔 that could be fun.

I got lost in work again

I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself.

I had such a good plans to keep my sanity and private life in order didn’t work out really.

Now with pre-opening of my latest project I barely sleep, don’t see my girlfriend at all. And motorcycle was abandoned long time ago.

Will see how it goes. If I won’t manage to sort myself out with this project by end of next week – reevaluation of priorities will be a must.

What a week…….. I better stop and have a glass of wine.

I am so happy it’s finally Sunday……

It was one of most difficult work weeks I had in years. Extramely intense and with ton of preasure.

Hotel is getting more and more busy with now having over 400 people in house, no experianced staff, 2 outlets operating to the limits and no one really to help it got its toe on me.

On top of that preparation for opening new franchise outlet reached its creatical phase and preasure just keeps mounting up. This week I dicovered that way kitchen is build is actuall very different from how it was designed and I’m not sure yet how are we gonna work around it.

But my biggest worry is that We are still missing a lot of contaiers with decorations, scenery, equipment. A lot is still missing and with arrival dates very, very close to the date when instalation team was suppose to get here.

Customs are not helping out either. Almost every container is stuck for days before they get their heads around what it contains and release it. I’m hoping we will manage to get it all together somehow.

Worst thing is that there is no one to help. Company is still working on Minimum teams. everyone is doing job of 2 or 3 people, recruitment is dissaster not only because there is no people but as well because HR is simply overloaded and she’s not managing at all.

In the middle of this I had my first COVID Vaccine shot and I lost almost 2 full days. First right after vaccine I felt sick and on a second day It was impossible to focus on anything. Exrtramely weird. Never felt like this.

At least uesterday I’ve managed to catch up finally a bit on a office work. Created few new procedures, wrote down SOP’s, maybe this week I can start focusing on trainign my supervisors. That will be a good change.

It will be a tough summer. that’s for sure. Still considering that 6 weeks ago I had only 2 staff memebers, no procedures, no one who understands F&B, no equipment and no plan – I wthink I’ve managed well.

Today’s Writing feels a bit like complate mess.
I better stop and get a glass of wine …….

My Old / New Hobby….

Most of my life I was never really passionate about anything. I watched other people getting hyped about sports, different activities, books, video games……etc. And me. ….. nothing. nothing really excited me to the point of obsesion oe even for longer than a day or two.
Yes. I use to like certain things. I still do. but I would never call neither of them a passion.

Now beeing in my late 30s and still not having any real passion I start to wonder… Is it me? or just world around me is just not exciting enough anf I simply haven’t came across my passion yet?.

Contemplating all of this I decided to try something.
I always liked to travel. So I got myself a new / old motrcycle and started driving around the island 🙂

In the meantime I started learning how to make you tube videos.

My plan is very simple.

  1. re-learn how to ride a motorcycle
  2. learn how to prepare for a long trip
  3. buy a new motorcycle 🙂
  4. Plan a trip accross Europe
  5. Go on a trip across Europe 🙂

WIll see If I can make it and If I can find something which I will be passionate about.

I will call them trips of self discovery.

Royal Enfield Himallayan is my motorcycle of choice for this trip.
I will explain why in one of next posts.

Now I’m driving this Suzuki GS500 🙂

My Latest Trip 🙂

Any way. This seems to be something which bring me most joy recently. Will see what comes out of it 🙂

Getting my work priorities right….

My wife got angry with me yesterday………. Like really angry. For something which I’ve never considered wrong or inappropriate. Now when I think about it I was wrong all a long, and it actually brought a work realisation a long the way.

Let me explain.

In all my previous jobs my main task was solving small issues. Constantly – and I mean constantly. Up to 30-40 issues a day. People would come to me or phone me with a problem and I would provide a solution. If not right there and then, within next 24hrs everything was sorted.
I had occasional bigger projects but those happened on occasion and rarely had proper time frame, and my on the spot problem solving never really interfered with long term outcome of bigger projects.

Until I changed jobs.

Now I’m in charge of two huge projects and I need to admit I’m struggling.
I was trying to figure it out for quite few weeks now why I constantly keep running out of time, my tasks and to do list keeps constantly growing and rarely shrinking to les than 15 items. I simply wasn’t able to keep up.

And than it hit me – actually my wife did 🙂

We were out having ice cream. My job kept calling 3 time within one ice cream eating time resulting in my ice cream melting. I kept apologising to my wife each time I answered but on the third time and half of the ice cream melted later she snapped:

“Why you just won’t tell them: “If it’s not important I’ll deal with it later!!!!!” and there it was…….
Bright like a sun!!!! This is my issue.

After we finished arguing we spoke and analysed way I work.
It seems that every time something new comes up I automatically put it on top of the list for solving it right away. Exactly the same as I was doing it in the past 4 years – Wrong.

New job is different – every task is almost like a small project and need to be treated as such. Often needing analysis, delegating and multiple tasks along the way before completion.


I didn’t adapt properly to the new environment and work requirements resulting in near failure and lots and lots of unnecessary stress.

Worse thing is that I just couldn’t see it until my ice cream melted and my wife pointed it out to me.

Bottom line – it’s good to have second opinion. Even if it seems that opinion is completely irrelevant to your job, your views and your experiance.
You can still consider it and look for something to adapt to your current situation.

So from now on we have a new rule, me and wife that is.

when I answer work call when at home or during private time she will ask me later – was this important? what was it about?

I will not get frustrated and instead I will summarise the call to which she will give me her view and opinion if in her eyes this was important enough to spend 10-20 min on a call. or it could have been postponed for later.
I’m hoping that having her opinion on those things will help me re-organize my priorities.

Consider this – 20 min it’s a lot of time If I do something similar like above mentioned call 10 times a day I’m loosing 2hrs of productive time during the day. this way instead of working 10hrs I am working 12hrs.

That is huge difference.

Any way.

Let’s stop this here.

I’ll try to put it in motion and will see what happens……….