I had been away from here for soooooo long that I’ve nearly forgotten about existance of my own blog.
It was supposed to be easy way to release overspill of my thoughts.
Lately I’ve been so busy that I was coming up with constant excuses not to write. I wanted to during the day and than after work….. puff. All energy gone….. couldn’t get myself to write.

Don’t get me wrong – I am not a writer. My profesion is so far from writiting anything (as you can probably see through my grammar :)) Writing is not essential to my day to day existance. Maybe that’s why it is so difficult to write.. 🤔 Who knows.

I think that in the end writing does help me release mental preasure so I will try to continiue.

So what had been bothering me lately???? …… In short – A LOT….. especially carrear wise.

I just managed to open succesfully huge restaurant project. We’ve been operating for over 6 weeks now. reviews are coming in – they not perfect but overall experiance is very positive. Considering the situation I managed to gather very good team of service staff. They all hard working and eager to learn. All procedures in the restaurant are falling slowly in to place, and yet……….. I’m extramely unhappy with the result…… or with the job itself. Hard to say.

It could be as well that I’mm tired of people. Oh and I’m so tired of people. All the guests coming in seem so spoiled. Thinking that they its their god given right to treat service staff like servants and the place like they own it.
Every second complaint it’s so baseless that this would have been unthinkable 20 years ago. On top of that all the threats of – “I will post bed review on all platforms” it’s been ridicolous. And owners all they care about is Facebook image, google reviews, tripadvisor……. that gives people to much power.
And to add to this I hate when Bosses interfere with bookings and seatings. Just learn to say bloody NO to the owners. grow some balls – if I’m telling you I don’t have tables it means – I do not have physical tables. I cannot just magically make another room with 20 more tables. I don’t care that those are the owner friends. No tables means – NO TABLES…. simple is that – telling me “make your mirracles you always manage” is not encuraging – rather opposite – it is very disrespectfull and to me it seems that you don’t believe and don’t trust me in running the business. It shows that “I know better even that I haven’t even been here for one shift during service.

All this brings me again to one HUGE Question – what should I do. – work wise I mean.
On this tiny dot of an Island there is so few opportunities that changing a carrear might be difficult. and anything I’m passionate bout it simply cannot work here or I don’t have enough money to start on it.

Will see. I’ve order digital note pad hoping that it will help me organize my life – I know – wishfull thinking – notepad will not organize my life- I need to do it myself. Maybe if I write it on the bottom of each of my daily note I will not forget…………