Don’t really know what to do next with myself :(

So I’ve been thinking long and hard what should be my next carear step, and I honestly have no Idea 😦

This looka like a simple question – “What to do next with my life?” – but answer is very far from simple……

I’ve been working in hospitality for nearly 15 years now lately every day when I wake up I’m just not excited to go to work anymore. Somehow routine and boredom got into me. It could be as well that the whole industry have changed (not only during covid). People got more and more mean, they think of themselves more and more entitled to things. and that reflects restaurant and whole hospitality industry. It is Incredibly difcult to host someone who thinks they are entitled to everything, they want everything, and servers are more of a slaves rather than “servers”. It could be only in my part of the world but I strongly doubt that it is.

At least now I’ve managed to secure myself a job where I work roughly 40hrs a week which gives me quite a lot of free time. So far I was filling that free time with resting, motorcycle ride and looking for my inner peace and mindfulness 🙂

In the meantime I started learning a bit of YouTube creation and looking into website development – so far through WordPress only but I’m seariously thinking of starting HTML5 & JSS Courses. I dodn’t know.

From one side it feels boring – sitting in front of a computer, clicking away all day, mostly without contact with people …… (sometimes this feels like a huge plus :)) I’m not used to this at all, always working beetwen people, meeting new characters every day.

But on the other side it feels exciting as I will be “creating” new things. Even if it is a simple web page, full site or you tube channel it feels pretty good knowing that it will be out there for people to enjoy (or not) and it will be my creation.

I actually think that 15 years experiance from hospitality can be usefull as I’ve seen A Lot of people behaviours and different patterns. collected lots of opinions on a lot of useless staff so optimizing any kind of user interface might be easier now 🙂

And Biggest plus of it all is that it feels like this is sort of future proof skill at least for next decade.

Any how. WIll see in few months If I manage to stick to those goals. For now plan is to start learning and maybe secure part time internship somehwere by mid summer – It will be weird to be intern at nearly 40 years old but who cares 🙂

Till next time……….

Brain Explodes – Let’s Continue

I had been away from here for soooooo long that I’ve nearly forgotten about existance of my own blog.
It was supposed to be easy way to release overspill of my thoughts.
Lately I’ve been so busy that I was coming up with constant excuses not to write. I wanted to during the day and than after work….. puff. All energy gone….. couldn’t get myself to write.

Don’t get me wrong – I am not a writer. My profesion is so far from writiting anything (as you can probably see through my grammar :)) Writing is not essential to my day to day existance. Maybe that’s why it is so difficult to write.. 🤔 Who knows.

I think that in the end writing does help me release mental preasure so I will try to continiue.

So what had been bothering me lately???? …… In short – A LOT….. especially carrear wise.

I just managed to open succesfully huge restaurant project. We’ve been operating for over 6 weeks now. reviews are coming in – they not perfect but overall experiance is very positive. Considering the situation I managed to gather very good team of service staff. They all hard working and eager to learn. All procedures in the restaurant are falling slowly in to place, and yet……….. I’m extramely unhappy with the result…… or with the job itself. Hard to say.

It could be as well that I’mm tired of people. Oh and I’m so tired of people. All the guests coming in seem so spoiled. Thinking that they its their god given right to treat service staff like servants and the place like they own it.
Every second complaint it’s so baseless that this would have been unthinkable 20 years ago. On top of that all the threats of – “I will post bed review on all platforms” it’s been ridicolous. And owners all they care about is Facebook image, google reviews, tripadvisor……. that gives people to much power.
And to add to this I hate when Bosses interfere with bookings and seatings. Just learn to say bloody NO to the owners. grow some balls – if I’m telling you I don’t have tables it means – I do not have physical tables. I cannot just magically make another room with 20 more tables. I don’t care that those are the owner friends. No tables means – NO TABLES…. simple is that – telling me “make your mirracles you always manage” is not encuraging – rather opposite – it is very disrespectfull and to me it seems that you don’t believe and don’t trust me in running the business. It shows that “I know better even that I haven’t even been here for one shift during service.

All this brings me again to one HUGE Question – what should I do. – work wise I mean.
On this tiny dot of an Island there is so few opportunities that changing a carrear might be difficult. and anything I’m passionate bout it simply cannot work here or I don’t have enough money to start on it.

Will see. I’ve order digital note pad hoping that it will help me organize my life – I know – wishfull thinking – notepad will not organize my life- I need to do it myself. Maybe if I write it on the bottom of each of my daily note I will not forget…………


What a week…….. I better stop and have a glass of wine.

I am so happy it’s finally Sunday……

It was one of most difficult work weeks I had in years. Extramely intense and with ton of preasure.

Hotel is getting more and more busy with now having over 400 people in house, no experianced staff, 2 outlets operating to the limits and no one really to help it got its toe on me.

On top of that preparation for opening new franchise outlet reached its creatical phase and preasure just keeps mounting up. This week I dicovered that way kitchen is build is actuall very different from how it was designed and I’m not sure yet how are we gonna work around it.

But my biggest worry is that We are still missing a lot of contaiers with decorations, scenery, equipment. A lot is still missing and with arrival dates very, very close to the date when instalation team was suppose to get here.

Customs are not helping out either. Almost every container is stuck for days before they get their heads around what it contains and release it. I’m hoping we will manage to get it all together somehow.

Worst thing is that there is no one to help. Company is still working on Minimum teams. everyone is doing job of 2 or 3 people, recruitment is dissaster not only because there is no people but as well because HR is simply overloaded and she’s not managing at all.

In the middle of this I had my first COVID Vaccine shot and I lost almost 2 full days. First right after vaccine I felt sick and on a second day It was impossible to focus on anything. Exrtramely weird. Never felt like this.

At least uesterday I’ve managed to catch up finally a bit on a office work. Created few new procedures, wrote down SOP’s, maybe this week I can start focusing on trainign my supervisors. That will be a good change.

It will be a tough summer. that’s for sure. Still considering that 6 weeks ago I had only 2 staff memebers, no procedures, no one who understands F&B, no equipment and no plan – I wthink I’ve managed well.

Today’s Writing feels a bit like complate mess.
I better stop and get a glass of wine …….

Getting lost in workload – again……

For some reason since I came back home I have not had time to write even a single word for the blog.

It’s not like I didn’t had any ideas. Just never found time. Or in better words – never made time.

I got lost in work so much that again I was very close to turning my life upside down. All because I don’t know how to put brakes on myself. To stop and leave things for later.

When I came back from all those uselessq uarantines I was so behind with work that I ended up doing 80hr weeks for 3 weeks in a row as a effect, and not that anybody forced me to. It was all my own choosing. Effects? yes I caught up at work but nearly lost my girlfriend in the process -AGAIN -however I need to admit that she was more undarstanfing this time than before.

And I cannot blame her. We didn’t see each other for near 8 weeks and what I do when I’m back. I dissapear again – this time for work. Which is even worse as I’m often stressed and agitated and not easy to talk to.

So from this week I made a hard choice. I need to work on managing my work time better:

  • Day off is a must – and it must be undisturbed,
  • Need to find people to whom I can delegate more, so I don’t have to do everything myself
  • Find a way to relax during work. some quick stress relief will be amazing.
  • Organize work topics much better – reviews at the end of day
  • Time management !!!!!!!!!
  • Try to talk to people and make friends at work – this should help.

WIll see how this is works out. I have not reached boiling point at work yet but I have a feeling it’s approaching fast.

And said that it’s time for me to go to work 🙂 ………